Happy Almost Birthday

One year ago today I was sent to he hospital. I had, what was to be my last, appointment with my doctor when she informed me that I was having contractions (I know, please don’t hate me, I thought they were Braxton Hicks) and because my blood pressure was a bit elevated that I was to go directly to the hospital. I remember it very clearly. I was elated!

It was noon and I went out to the car to call my husband to pick me up because we were going to have a baby today. I then called my mother-in-law, as she was the only family member home at the time and told her that I was on my way to the hospital. Now she didn’t quite believe me at first, because it was a running joke that whenever we spoke she would ask if I was on my way to the hospital and I would always answer yes. So when I finally convinced her that it was true this time, she just about jumped through the phone.  Lastly I called a friend of mine who worked at the hospital to let her know that I might be around during her shift that evening and she was also excited. I couldn’t wipe the smile off my face! I was finally going to meet the person who had been growing inside me for 8 1/2 months, my baby, our baby.

We arrived at the hospital and I was calm, Chris was calm. The night before I realized that I hadn’t yet packed my bag and did so. I also realized that Chris didn’t have a comprehensive list of people and their phone numbers/emails, so I created it, printed it and carefully put it on his desk so he would see it. So the list was made and the bag was already in the car. I knew about the nesting thing, but I had no idea about he premonition thing! So, we walked down the lobby of the hospital prepared, at least I thought I was prepared…

What I wasn’t prepared for was sitting in the maternity room waiting for a nurse who never came. Finally being admitted into the room and being hooked up to machines and being told I can’t move, oh and by the way you need to lay on this side please, nothing is wrong, we just want your pressure to go down and the baby to be comfortable. Never mind that I wasn’t comfortable! I was so looking forward to using the big ball to roll around on during labor too.

I also wasn’t prepared for not getting dinner and then being told that I wasn’t progressing fast enough and since I wouldn’t have the baby until 2 am at this rate they wanted to slow down the petocin so I could get a good night sleep. That meant I wouldn’t be having the baby until tomorrow. I was crushed, devastated. I wanted to have my baby now, right now, I was ready! But it was not to be, at least not for one more day.

One year ago today, Aiden was not born. It was so frustrating at the time because we didn’t know if we were having a boy or a girl and the hopes of finding out had to wait an extra day. My uterus was ready because it contracted all night long though, one year ago today.

Today I look into the eyes of my not quite one-year-old son and remember all those thoughts and feelings. He has no idea why mommy keeps looking at him, hugging him and kissing him with so much love behind each one. He has no idea how hard it was to wait one more day to have him in my life.

Happy Almost Birthday Aiden.

4 comments May 18th, 2006

Want To Know Something?

I’ve never done a meme before but have enjoyed reading them. So, I have been inspired by some cool mommies to join the meme world. This means I am tagging myself so enjoy…

I AM: very fortunate to have such a wonderful husband and super cute baby boy.

I WANT: the democrats to pull themselves together and do something…anything!

I WISH: people would communicate better with each other.

I HATE: that George W. Bush was “elected,” not once but twice.

I MISS: my high school friend who lives on the other side of the country.

I FEAR: that George W. Bush has ruined this country beyond repair.

I HEAR: those very annoying and loud birds at 5 am every morning.

I WONDER: what my son will be like when he grows up.

I REGRET: anytime I was purposefully mean to someone.

I AM NOT: as young as I look (and love every minute of it).

I DANCE: as if no one is watching.

I SING: every song I possibly can.

I CRY: when I’m frustrated.

I AM NOT ALWAYS: as patient as I’d like to think I am.

I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: signs so my son can learn how to communicate with me.

I WRITE: but not as often as I should.

I CONFUSE: easily.

I NEED: more sleep.

I SHOULD: write the review I promised to Parenting Ideas.

I START: each day wondering why I didn’t go to bed earlier.

I FINISH: each day exhausted yet satisfied.

1 comment May 16th, 2006

Happy Mother’s Day

I love to any reason to celebrate: birthdays, weddings, holidays, Fridays, etc. Today’s celebration is one where I finally get to participate. Last year I was patiently waiting for the arrival of my first born so technically I didn’t have anyone there to call me mom.

I was as big as a house on Mother’s Day 2005. Ok, maybe not as big as a house, but that’s how I felt. Interestingly enough every family member that I spoke to today made sure to mention how large and uncomfortable I looked last year. Now, this is not how I wanted my first Mother’s Day to proceed, by being reminded of the size of my butt, however I let it go. It’s my first Mother’s Day and I intended to enjoy it.

Aiden must have wanted to celebrate too because he decided that he was going to wake us up at 6 am. This is not his usual time to rise, so I can only assume that he wanted to hug and kiss me and couldn’t wait one more second. I, however, did not think this was the ideal way to start my special day, so I rolled over hoping he would fall back to sleep.

Chris must have sensed this because my wonderful husband went against every fiber of his being and got up, changed, fed and played with our son until 8 am so I could sleep. He and Aiden came into the bedroom at that time because he claims Aiden couldn’t wait to give me my presents. I received a sign language kit and a pedometer, both items I have been talking about purchasing. It was a fantastic way to start the day.

We visited with my dad and step mom because my mom was not going to be around. It was a really pleasant visit and Aiden was his usual cute self. I don’t think I could have planned a better Mother’s Day myself.

Happy Mother’s Day to mothers everywhere!

Add comment May 14th, 2006

Guess Who’s Bringing Over Dinner?

Today was a busy day.

First we took Aiden to the local gardening center to pick out some new plants for our front yard. Aiden went down for a nap, which gave us time to wrestled the juniper plant out of the front yard and finally make the front yard ours. It only took 6 years.

We gave our friends Tara and Drew a call to see what they were up to, but they weren’t home. We thought that we would get some errands done after Aiden woke up since they weren’t available. As luck would have it, they called back and decided to bring us dinner. It was so nice of them since we haven’t seen them in a while and I didn’t have to cook!

We hung out and stayed up way too late. It has been a while that we have stayed up past midnight without a baby dictating the events of the evening. I felt like I was back in college…talking and giggling. Drew fits right in, which is so cool since the three of us have been friends since college. Hooray for friends!

Add comment May 13th, 2006

Daddy’s Sick

Well, all that sneezing, coughing and stuffiness has reached the last unaffected person in the house. So, instead of having two kids to take care of today, I had two kids and a husband. I did feel bad that Chris was sick on one of his days off. Chris did get some rest when I took the kids for a walk to the park. The day as a whole wasn’t as bad as I thought, but I am glad it is Friday.

1 comment May 12th, 2006