Archive for October, 2006
On Saturday, Aiden had his second annual Halloween party. It was a smash! He was the most adorable little bear I have ever seen. All his friends had a great time and we enjoyed hanging out with the parents as well. Aiden was a snitch needy, but we thought it was due to all the people in the house. All in all it was a great day.
Apparently Aiden’s neediness was not a reflection of the amount of people that were over (although I’m sure that didn’t help) but it was due to the fact that he was getting sick. By Monday his nose was running and he wanted to be held all day. I indulged his sickness and let him watch some tv in my bed with a sippy cup of water and some crackers (tv and eating/drinking in the bed is usually a big no-no in our house).
Halloween came and Aiden was still sniffling. He took a mega long nap and I was beginning to think that today was going to come and go without Aiden participating. He perked up enough to go visit daddy at work and he was a big hit. We visitied one neighbor for trick or treating, but he was more fascinated by the kids coming to the door. Not a bad way to celebrate this holiday. Happy Halloween everyone!
October 31st, 2006
I am screwed. I knew this was true, but have been denying it for years. Now it is painfully clear that it has to be dealt with or Aiden is going to suffer. I am a night owl.
I stayed up until 4 am, clear thinking and productive. I created lesson plans for the next 4 weeks, a sample site for the project that my students are doing and a Newsletter for the adjuncts. Four o’clock in the morning and I still wasn’t sleepy! I knew that Aiden was going to be up anywhere between 6 and 7 am, leaving me with very little sleep with which to function. What was I thinking?!?
I was thinking that my work was getting done. I was thinking that it is very difficult during the day to get anything done, even during his naps. I was thinking I could nap when Aiden naps. Well, I thought wrong… strangely, I woke up, stayed up with Aiden, got even more done during his nap and went to bed at normal time. The crash is coming, I just know it!
Now, I’m sure this behavior is just some strange twitch in my cycle, but it made me realize that I do indeed function better after 9 pm. This is not good since I know that Aiden needs me to be fully functioning during the day. He is a toddler for crying out loud! He does want me plopped on the couch asking him to play with his puzzles or blocks or cars again for the umpteenth time. He wants/needs mommy playtime - swing me, dance with me, play “chase me” or “peek-a-boo” or even take me to the park. But due to my new night owl-ness I am less motivated to do these things during the day.
So, do I sacrifice being productive for Aiden’s sake, or do I say that the semester is only until the beginning of December and deprive him of good mommy time for a couple of months? Just one of the many questions I will be facing as a part-time working/full-time mommy.
October 25th, 2006
Wow, I am so sorry to have made you wait so long. What was that? Oh, you thought you were in some doctor’s office or waiting in line for tickets to a concert. Again, my apologies.
I have come to discover something during my hiatus. I discovered that I needed this blog more than anything during my son’s first year. I was able to rant, complain and even brag at will and all of you were right there with me lending a sympathetic ear or cheerleader-like enthusiam. I truly appreciate every single comment and wish I could give each one of you a hug.
Since Aiden’s first birthday, I have been having so much fun with him yet I am not interested in writing about it. I guess I just don’t “need” you like I once “needed” you. I know that sounds like a lame excuse, but unlike some of you I am not a writer at heart. I was never good at keeping a journal when I was younger, mostly because I was more interested in playing a game of ball in the backyard with all the guys (oh yes, I was a tomboy) or calling my friends to find out what they were up to or making out with my boyfriend. Writing just never came naturally to me. It became a chore and lately I have been doing all sorts of fun stuff with Aiden now that he is walking/running all over the place that I just kept putting it off.
Kudos to those of you who are dedicated to your writing. I admire your determination and will get back to reading and commenting at some point, but for now I am going to enjoy the time I am spending with Aiden.
For those of you keeping track, Aiden has all his teeth with the exception of his 2-year molars (which are currently shifting their way upward as he has not been sleeping well), he is a whiz at kicking a soccer ball, he now gives kisses when he wants and has quite the sense of humor. I am thoroughly enjoying our outings to the park every day (as long as the weather holds up) and teaching him more signs because he loves to communicate with me as much as he can (his words are not quite understandable yet). He loves the outdoors (yeah for us) and is interested in everything. We just love who he is becoming and can’t wait to see what is next.
Things with me have been changing, in a good way. My ranting friend had her baby and they are both doing well. I have been approved to teach another class next semester and will stop watching Matthew after November. I still have no desire to have another child at the moment and will keep those of you interested posted.
Hmmmm, let me see…I think that’s about all that’s new with me. So, what have you been up to?
October 20th, 2006