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What happens when the very thing that you are supposed to be best suited for is the very last thing you want to do anymore?
I am a teacher. I have always been a teacher. From the time I was young, I had no problem instructing my brothers what to do and how to do it. I have taught children and adults. I have taught them most anything. It doesn’t matter what the subject as long as I have a little knowledge in it. I try to be creative but more importantly give them a chance to succeed or fail on their own. Sounds like I have my career cut out for me, right?
I have been teaching steadily for about 12 years. I have substituted for elementary school, taught 3rd grade, instructed teachers and adults on the internet and web site design. I still teach at a community college teaching web design. I teach my children, ages 4 and 11 months, throughout the day on various subjects. I try to make every possible opportunity a teachable moment. Sounds like I’m happy with what I do, right?
The sad part about all this is that I’m not happy with what I do. I’m not as patient as I used to be with my students, the administration is providing their fair share of obstacles and I am just plain bored with the subject matter. I love coding web pages with html and css. Yes I’m a bit of a geek, but I do enjoy it. What I am not enjoying is passing this information on to the next generation.
What I need is a kick in the pants. What I need is change. But what do I change? Do I change location? Do I change subject matters? Do I stop teaching all together and find something else to do? Hmmm.
I love being home with my kids, but as any stay at home mom will tell you, if she doesn’t get at least some time to do what she wants to do the quality of her work will suffer. I desperately want to get my passion back, but I am finding it hard to figure out what is the best thing to do. I have some time before the next semester starts. I’ll let you know what I decide. Until then, I will imerse myself in my children and learning the piano. Maybe being the student for a change will open my eyes to something I was missing.
June 9th, 2009
Alina has been really focusing on people’s faces lately. She has the cutest smile and greets me every morning with it as well as every time I get her from her naps. It is the biggest toothless grin you could imagine. Little did I know she saves most of them for me…
Technically the smiles are not just for me as Chris can get her to smile and Aiden does attract her attention. It has seemed lately that she grins and giggles when I just look at her and just say “Hi!” I have a friend who is determined to get a big grin from her, but so far she only does it for me. I am one loved mommy.
October 15th, 2008
Today is our 8th Wedding Anniversary. I was so excited being that 8 is my favorite number. Can you guess how we spent this wonderful occasion? I bet not…
After a long day with the kids and an uneventful, yet delicious dinner (with cake for dessert), we finally got both kids down. Around 9pm was when we had the much needed alone time to celebrate our day. Chris went downstairs and I told him I would join him momentarily. Well, 3 hours later he comes up to find me passed out on the bed - I haven’t had much sleep lately with all the waking up at night from both of the kids. So around midnight we exchanged cards and tucked ourselves into bed!
Happy Anniversary!
October 8th, 2008
I finally scheduled a session with my trainer at the gym. She was very happy to see me, as I was to see her. It has been about 2 1/2 months since having Alina and I am very anxious to get the weight off. My goal is to be down to a smaller size by the time we go visit Chris’s family for Thanksgiving. Ideally I’d like to be pre-pregnancy weight by then, but I’m not going to be upset if I am just looking better than right now.
Holy cow, did she give me quite a routine! I am sore and I didn’t even do a full set of everything. I hope I can make time to get to the gym 2-3 times a week. The weight will fall off if I can keep with it. I will try my hardest.
September 16th, 2008
Today the cool car (that’s what Aiden has dubbed the Odyssey) had to be towed to the Honda dealer. It is the second time in two weeks that the not-even-year-old-with-less-than-10,000-miles-on-it car had to be taken in for servicing. The first time the check engine light went on and they told me a mouse had chewed through some wire causing the light to go on. This week we were on our way to the grocery store and I noticed the car was unlocked and nothing happened when I tried to turn it on. I was mad too because we didn’t have much food in the house and I was craving something sweet.
So, instead of going to the store, Aiden and I waited for the towing company to come and take the car. I decided to check out under the hood to see if there was anything I could find (not that I know what I’m looking for, mind you). Well, much to my surprise, I did find something under the hood, something you would not normally find there - a nest! There were foot long sticks and balled up fuzzy stuff in the shape of a nest. Now, I know mice are good, but for those sticks to be there, it had to be an animal that had some muscle. I took pictures as I didn’t think that anyone would believe me.
The tow truck guy came and made me feel oh so good about the situation. He said that it was probably the battery as I had left the parking lights on. I assured him that I did not leave the parking lights on, but it was probably due to the fact that while I was trying to wrestle the car seat out of the back Aiden had been pushing buttons and pulling levers. I also should him the chewed up wires and nest under the hood. What do you think his response was? “Those wires are not chewed, they are just frayed.” Yes, that’s it, my girl brain must have gotten in the way of rational logic!
Later, I called the insurance guy to see if this was something that was covered under the policy as this was the second time this happened. We just couldn’t afford to have this keep happening every couple weeks, not to mention be down one vehicle. He had no idea if it was covered and then had the nerve to say that I must not look under the hood that often. I reminded him that this car was less than a year old and I didn’t think that it was necessary to do so. Did these men today think I was some stupid housewife who doesn’t know a thing about “manly” stuff? Let’s just say, I was not happy.
The thing that really annoyed me is that last fall Aiden and I would pile up the acorns in the back yard for the squirrels to find. Isn’t there a saying that one good deed deserves another? I guess no one told the squirrels.
March 6th, 2008
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